On my third day in treatment I finally made the mistake of deciding I could handle the noise in the dining room. I followed Shelly through the lunch line and tried to lip read her over the noise. It looked like she was explaining where to find things like napkins and condiments as I followedContinue reading “Drama In The Dining Room”
Tag Archives: Withdrawal
I Almost Didn’t Make It To My Car.
My legs started to buckle about 20 feet from my car. My car was the only car in the entire parking lot when I’d first arrived, and I’d parked it in a spot closest to the front door next to the handicapped parking. When I left the store, a cop car sat parked in theContinue reading “I Almost Didn’t Make It To My Car.”
O, The Lies I Told Myself.
I’m good. I’m really good. I can tell myself anything and believe it – if I want to. Especially when it comes to alcohol and drinking. I used to say to myself, “I’ll have just ONE drink. It’s a special occasion – it’s St. Patrick’s Day” Or, “It’s Wednesday, Fuck it.” Or, “The sun cameContinue reading “O, The Lies I Told Myself.”
Does Anyone Identify With This?
I don’t. When alcoholics. or addicts, are in the throes of detox and trying to get sober/clean – it’s nearly impossible for us to identify with a sober person dealing with us. It’s hard enough for folks to identify with one another when everyone involved is sober. But when one in the party of twoContinue reading “Does Anyone Identify With This?”
A Solid Pinch Does the Job
To prevent myself from smelling and tasting my leftover warm wine in the mornings, I would pinch the lower part of my nose until I’d swallowed my sip. By the time I’d moved into the nose pinch of my drinking career, I was also NEVER throwing out alcohol – no matter how long it’d beenContinue reading “A Solid Pinch Does the Job”
Get UP!
Sometimes, hiding under the covers is the best and only way to get through withdrawal. Instead of binging on alcohol or your drug of choice, try binging on a new or your favorite TV show to help you through to the sober side. Regardless – the only way out of withdrawal is through it. PostponingContinue reading “Get UP!”
Waking Up Sober
Waking up sober has just got to be akin to having a rainbow flow through my veins! If ONLY. I love to write, I love to string words together and I am having one hell of a time trying to describe this sensation of being sober in the morning as I sit here enjoying myContinue reading “Waking Up Sober”
Tough Love
How to communicate with the struggling addict? I know there are a lot of folks out there right now that are struggling with their sobriety. They want to get sober and they may even achieve some sobriety. But they relapse. Again and again and again. And sometimes this cycle goes on for years. It didContinue reading “Tough Love”
Like a Skull Hitting Cement
I’ve met a lot of people though my adventures in inpatient treatment centers. Many were there for alcohol abuse, like myself, but there were also a lot of people there who abused drugs I’d never even heard of including pain killers. I’ve never been attracted to other drugs and I’ve never tired most of them.Continue reading “Like a Skull Hitting Cement”
The Internal Tug of War
I read other’s posts regarding their struggle with alcohol and drinking and my heart goes out to them. If there was ever a fight on this planet worth fighting over and over and over again until the fight has been won, it’s alcoholism. I have fallen – crawled – literally – during the throes ofContinue reading “The Internal Tug of War”
Little House on the Prairie
When going through withdrawal (Delirium Tremens or the DTs), which happened on a daily basis for me during my heaviest drinking period, I found it immensely helpful to have something to distract me from them. In my case that was Little House on the Prairie or just about anything on TV. I think it wasContinue reading “Little House on the Prairie”
Withdrawal (DTs) vs Alcohol Poisoning
I was reading another Blogger’s post yesterday and he mentioned something about withdrawal and/or alcohol poisoning. It is my experience that withdrawal is a result of both long term alcohol abuse and alcohol poisoning. Excessive and severe drinkers build up a tolerance to alcohol over time. This means they can/do/need to drink more to achieveContinue reading “Withdrawal (DTs) vs Alcohol Poisoning”