Moving Out And Moving On ~ Chapter 27

The following is an excerpt from my memoir, Saturation. My divorce from Dick finalized on 17 November 2006 and about two weeks later I decided to move out and go back into treatment. This time, going to treatment was my idea. There was nothing ‘Court Appointed’ about it. For toxic reasons unbeknownst to both ofContinue reading “Moving Out And Moving On ~ Chapter 27”

What’s So Bad About Rehab?

That’s right – going to rehab raises a plethora of fears. Like: Breaking old routines. Time away from family. Loss of relationship/s (this could turn out to be a good thing in some cases). Fear of getting to know yourself and what that implies. Rehab isn’t cheap. The food isn’t always spectacular. Unless you’re veryContinue reading “What’s So Bad About Rehab?”

She Stole My Ice Cream.

At my third treatment center in Newport Beach, CA, we, the residents, were taken to the grocery store once a week to stock up on groceries. There were four of us to each apartment, which meant that only four of us used the refrigerator in our kitchen. One day, I picked out and bought aContinue reading “She Stole My Ice Cream.”

It Only Took 23 Years!

It took me 23 years, seven residential treatment centers, numerous outpatient treatment, groups, sponsors, meetings, counselors, therapists, hospitals and jail to finally figure out that if I wanted to get sober and stay sober, I had to continue doing one thing – the same thing – not drinking. That’s it. That one thing. Everything elseContinue reading “It Only Took 23 Years!”

The Confrontation

Lany, the assistant director of our treatment center, seemed oblivious to the fact that other people might overhear her if they’re standing next to her. I’d been editing my 1st step all morning. A 1st step is a lengthy AA assignment and we were asked to complete one during treatment. By the time I realizedContinue reading “The Confrontation”

What To Expect In Residential Treatment.

The following is a list of things I either received, experienced or witnessed, in order of frequency, from all seven of my treatment centers combined. Hold on to your hats… Drama – SO much drama Noise (crying, laughing, yelling, music, etc…treatment centers are very loud.) Deceit (folks lying to themselves, to others or to me.)Continue reading “What To Expect In Residential Treatment.”

Saturation: A Memoir (Part 2) Is Under Construction.

I must say, rereading my memoir is taking me on a long trip down memory lane. I’d forgotten some of these details! It sure is a good thing I wrote everything down when I did! I just decided today that once I’m ready to republish my book, I’m going to remove the first edition. IContinue reading “Saturation: A Memoir (Part 2) Is Under Construction.”

For The Most Part… Con’t From Chapter 4

The following is an excerpt from my book Saturation A Memoir. You can find it on Amazon here: https://www.amazon.com/~/e/B0067BBNKM ~~~~~~~ Today, I consider my decisions and departure during that time emotionally and psychologically violent. I was merciless and utterly selfish in my intoxication. I spared no one. Both of my sons settled into their livesContinue reading “For The Most Part… Con’t From Chapter 4”

Psychodrama

Psychodrama is an exercise used in psychotherapy and utilized by some inpatient treatment centers for the purpose of self-discovery. It is supposed to be therapeutic. But at my 4th treatment center in Florida, the staff misused it terribly. They had us participate in psychodrama for their amusement and entertainment and it was beyond inappropriate andContinue reading “Psychodrama”