AA Step 4 ~Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.

This is probably my favorite step in AA. I’ve practiced this so regularly it’s something I do without even thinking about it. I think another way to put this step would be to write it as “Stop lying to yourself. The only fool here is you.” This step is a terrific way to not onlyContinue reading “AA Step 4 ~Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.”

What’s So Bad About Rehab?

That’s right – going to rehab raises a plethora of fears. Like: Breaking old routines. Time away from family. Loss of relationship/s (this could turn out to be a good thing in some cases). Fear of getting to know yourself and what that implies. Rehab isn’t cheap. The food isn’t always spectacular. Unless you’re veryContinue reading “What’s So Bad About Rehab?”

How Did That Bottle Get Under My Pillow!?

Look! Here’s another one behind the living room curtains! And here’s a new bottle of vodka in the guest bedroom closet under a stack of blankets. Of all the weird shit! No!! I swear! I have no idea how this stuff got there. No. Really. I swear. I speak no lies. PUHLEASE. And I don’tContinue reading “How Did That Bottle Get Under My Pillow!?”

O, The Lies I Told Myself.

I’m good. I’m really good. I can tell myself anything and believe it – if I want to. Especially when it comes to alcohol and drinking. I used to say to myself, “I’ll have just ONE drink. It’s a special occasion – it’s St. Patrick’s Day” Or, “It’s Wednesday, Fuck it.” Or, “The sun cameContinue reading “O, The Lies I Told Myself.”

Getting Sober and Staying Sober. What’s the difference?

Relapse.  That’s the difference between getting sober and staying sober.  Getting sober is no small endeavor, and obviously, neither is staying sober. While getting sober might feel impossible to some folks, staying sober is equally challenging. The temptation to drink is always lurking. ALWAYS. Whether someone chooses to drink or chooses to stay sober dependsContinue reading “Getting Sober and Staying Sober. What’s the difference?”

I am NOT An Alcoholic!

“I’m not slurring.” “I’m not spending all my money on alcohol.” “I can walk a straight line.” “I remember what I said last night. I just don’t want to rehash it.” “I’m not lying. Believe what you want.“ “Everyone needs to relax. I’m not drinking too much.” “My marriage/relationship has always been miserable.” “Of courseContinue reading “I am NOT An Alcoholic!”