NOUN the state of having mixed feelings or contradictory ideas about something or someone. Is this or is this not the MOST uncomfortable mental state – ever? ***Yes, I want to get up earlier so that I can get stuff done and enjoy more of my time off – but I want to stay inContinue reading “Ambivalence”
Staying sober will always be a challenge. There is ALWAYS an alternative to having a drink.
Where we are in life is a result of choices we’ve made. I read, on a regular basis, that folks are unhappy with the situations they’re in. These situations range from marriage and partnership to jobs and freedom. It’s weird. The way I see it – nearly everything we do is the result of aContinue reading “And You Wonder How You Got There.”
And then I had to lay on my back and look at the ceiling and say, “I need to stop doing this to myself. I’m not having any fun anymore.” Literally. I’m not embellishing here. The title to this post is not – as our new President likes to say – hyperbole. I think anyoneContinue reading “I Had To Crawl Toward Sobriety.”
Stop breathing. Only for a second. I think real hard and squish my eyebrows together in concentration. And then I start the mental process of elimination – regarding the issue at hand – and I keep going until I have nothing left but one choice. Sometimes, I even have to write it all down soContinue reading “When I Don’t Know What To Do, I”
What’s the difference between a conclusion and a decision? Does concluding something mean I’ve come to an understanding about it? Does deciding something mean I’ve chosen one thing over something else? Are these just a handful of words that all mean the same shit? I can decide lots of things without really thinking about themContinue reading “Conclusions Vs Decisions. 🤨”
As long as folks who are struggling to get or stay sober keep that drink on the top shelf of their mind – rather than tossing it in the dumpster where it belongs – it’s going to stare them right back in the face. Getting and staying sober doesn’t have to be such a struggle.Continue reading “Toss It In The Dumpster.”
What’s the difference? It’s BIG. Is there a difference? YES. To be sober – one needs to stop swallowing alcohol. That’s it. To be in recovery – one needs to become a non-drinker. These are two very different positions to take. The first is a change in outward behavior. Don’t pick up a drink. TheContinue reading “Am I Sober or Am I In Recovery?”
I was walking the kittens yesterday when an idea overtook the direction of my thinking. Do Alcoholics ever fully recover? I considered that as long as I continue to – not drink alcohol – my alcoholism stays dormant. Perhaps like cancer? (I’ve never had cancer) But if I ever choose to pick up again, I’llContinue reading “Do Alcoholics Ever FULLY Recover? 🤔”
For the last eight months, the only reason I’ve stayed sober is because I’ve chosen not to swallow alcohol.
I had to kill a snake the other day. I had to do it or it would have died slowly and painfully. It was on the bike path and I think someone had ridden over its head with their bicycle. When I walked up to it I noticed blood on the pavement that was comingContinue reading “The Snake”