Chapter 4 ~ CHANGES

The following is an excerpt from my memoir Saturation. I was rarely predictable. My moods fluctuated depending on several factors: they fluctuated depending on the amount of alcohol I’d already consumed, the amount of alcohol within my reach, and the amount of alcohol that I knew I needed to buy. These were all of utmostContinue reading “Chapter 4 ~ CHANGES”

The Approaching Storm

The following is an excerpt from my book, Saturation. When I was 27, I learned that alcohol could be used for specific purposes – to calm down and to disengage from reality. I began to use it as a tool, but I took ownership of it slowly. Like many healthy young adults, I chipped awayContinue reading “The Approaching Storm”

Anxiety During Sobriety

My anxiety has always reminded me of times I got high and hated it. I never really enjoyed smoking weed much in the first place, but some highs were definitely worse than others. After taking a walk a few minutes ago and experiencing a lot of anxiety at the same time (it felt like anotherContinue reading “Anxiety During Sobriety”

Something Isn’t Right

Here I am, a Recovery Coach and I’m unable to coach myself. Is this normal? My boyfriend, for all intents and purposes, is a groovy guy. He’s smart, he’s witty, he’s funny, he’s employed, he’s sober, he’s in love with me, he tries to remember to put the seat down, my kittens like him, andContinue reading “Something Isn’t Right”