How Did That Bottle Get Under My Pillow!?

Look! Here’s another one behind the living room curtains! And here’s a new bottle of vodka in the guest bedroom closet under a stack of blankets. Of all the weird shit! No!! I swear! I have no idea how this stuff got there. No. Really. I swear. I speak no lies. PUHLEASE. And I don’tContinue reading “How Did That Bottle Get Under My Pillow!?”

Saturation: A Memoir (Part 2) Is Under Construction.

I must say, rereading my memoir is taking me on a long trip down memory lane. I’d forgotten some of these details! It sure is a good thing I wrote everything down when I did! I just decided today that once I’m ready to republish my book, I’m going to remove the first edition. IContinue reading “Saturation: A Memoir (Part 2) Is Under Construction.”

It IS Possible!

I just found this photo on a social network site and had to snag it. It’s a wonderful example of what is possible for every addict and alcoholic in terms of beginning a new clean and sober life. We can begin again. This photo, I believe, embodies perfectly the tangible and available potential we allContinue reading “It IS Possible!”

I Was Drunk At My Own Wedding

The following is an excerpt from my book Saturation, A Memoir. My work can be found on Amazon here: https://www.amazon.com/~/e/B0067BBNKM ~~~ “I could not have been more thrilled to be moving to Canada. Vancouver is only a two hour drive north of Seattle. I didn’t care so much about the city Dick and I wereContinue reading “I Was Drunk At My Own Wedding”

Am I Sober or Am I In Recovery?

What’s the difference? It’s BIG. Is there a difference? YES. To be sober – one needs to stop swallowing alcohol. That’s it. To be in recovery – one needs to become a non-drinker. These are two very different positions to take. The first is a change in outward behavior. Don’t pick up a drink. TheContinue reading “Am I Sober or Am I In Recovery?”

Do Alcoholics Ever FULLY Recover? 🤔

I was walking the kittens yesterday when an idea overtook the direction of my thinking. Do Alcoholics ever fully recover? I considered that as long as I continue to – not drink alcohol – my alcoholism stays dormant. Perhaps like cancer? (I’ve never had cancer) But if I ever choose to pick up again, I’llContinue reading “Do Alcoholics Ever FULLY Recover? 🤔”

CANADA – Here We Come! 😎

Leaving Boulder, Colorado did not hurt one bit. I was long overdue for a change of scenery. Something else was going on with me. Something I didn’t share with anyone – not even myself in a one-on-one, self-talk sort of way. Until my relationship with Dick, I’d managed fairly well as a high functioning alcoholicContinue reading “CANADA – Here We Come! 😎”

Life Happened

I published my memoir in March of 2011. That was nearly a decade ago and a lot has happened since then. For one, Life has happened. I’ve already started the outline for my second book, but I’m not quite sure how to begin. I know, I know – at the beginning. Right? But it’s notContinue reading “Life Happened”

A Solid Pinch Does the Job

To prevent myself from smelling and tasting my leftover warm wine in the mornings, I would pinch the lower part of my nose until I’d swallowed my sip. By the time I’d moved into the nose pinch of my drinking career, I was also NEVER throwing out alcohol – no matter how long it’d beenContinue reading “A Solid Pinch Does the Job”

How Do You Support An Addict?

The ways are numerous, but first – I think the most important thing is to ask your heart to have a little sit down with your conscience. Those two things need to come together in agreement to support YOU before you can comfortably offer support to your addict. Once you establish what you can andContinue reading “How Do You Support An Addict?”

Like a Skull Hitting Cement

I’ve met a lot of people though my adventures in inpatient treatment centers. Many were there for alcohol abuse, like myself, but there were also a lot of people there who abused drugs I’d never even heard of including pain killers. I’ve never been attracted to other drugs and I’ve never tired most of them.Continue reading “Like a Skull Hitting Cement”