There is always a way. Figure it out.
It’s not. It never was. Or maybe it always has been because imperfection IS perfect. Regardless. We alcoholics missed out on a lot of the drama because we were too busy creating our own by getting drunk. Life, people, complications at work, our feelings – they come in at us like a tsunami during sobrietyContinue reading “Where Does This Notion Come From That Once We Get Sober Everything Is Going To Be Right In The World?”
“Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.“ What if doing so would injure me? Then what? What if I hurt that one guy who works at that one store where I got my wine that one time in Geneva? Common sense dictates that theContinue reading “AA – Step 9. AKA – O, Shit.”
I don’t. When alcoholics. or addicts, are in the throes of detox and trying to get sober/clean – it’s nearly impossible for us to identify with a sober person dealing with us. It’s hard enough for folks to identify with one another when everyone involved is sober. But when one in the party of twoContinue reading “Does Anyone Identify With This?”
Sometimes, I remind folks that when we decide to get sober and leave our drug of choice behind, essentially – we’re breaking up with it. My relationship was with alcohol and drinking it. Alcohol was always there for me – as long as I had the $$$ to buy it. I knew where to findContinue reading “What Speaks To Your Heart?”
The following is an excerpt from my book Saturation A Memoir. You can find it on Amazon here: https://www.amazon.com/~/e/B0067BBNKM ~~~~~~~ Today, I consider my decisions and departure during that time emotionally and psychologically violent. I was merciless and utterly selfish in my intoxication. I spared no one. Both of my sons settled into their livesContinue reading “For The Most Part… Con’t From Chapter 4”
Relapse. That’s the difference between getting sober and staying sober. Getting sober is no small endeavor, and obviously, neither is staying sober. While getting sober might feel impossible to some folks, staying sober is equally challenging. The temptation to drink is always lurking. ALWAYS. Whether someone chooses to drink or chooses to stay sober dependsContinue reading “Getting Sober and Staying Sober. What’s the difference?”
There’s no such thing as triggers. Alcoholics aren’t triggered to drink. Alcoholics find an excuse to drink and then later – point a finger at whatever ‘IT’ is or was, and call it a trigger. Please. We have to stop doing this. Now is a good time to own our behavior.
“I’m not slurring.” “I’m not spending all my money on alcohol.” “I can walk a straight line.” “I remember what I said last night. I just don’t want to rehash it.” “I’m not lying. Believe what you want.“ “Everyone needs to relax. I’m not drinking too much.” “My marriage/relationship has always been miserable.” “Of courseContinue reading “I am NOT An Alcoholic!”
The following is an excerpt from chapter 4 in my memoir, Saturation. Something else was going on with me as well, something I didn’t share with anyone – not even myself in a one-on-one, self-talk sort of way. Until my relationship with Dick, I’d managed fairly well as a high functioning alcoholic. When I movedContinue reading “Grouchy”
Saturation is available on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/Saturation-Memoir-Jennifer-Place/dp/1461018129/ref=tmm_pap_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=1602094107&sr=1-4 The following is an excerpt from my memoir. Mostly, I spoke to Dick like this because I was impressed by the insanity of his answers and I wanted to hear him repeat them. He’d say something like, “I can imagine who you are and what you’re like when you’reContinue reading “Chapter 4 continued …”
Aren’t those two words just brilliant together?! Emotional Distance. If only I’d employed a little of that at the beginning of my alcoholic career, I might never have become an alcoholic in the first place. I might never have developed my emotional attachment to alcohol. Oh well. I didn’t think to put those two wordsContinue reading “Emotional Distance”
The following is an excerpt from my memoir Saturation. I was rarely predictable. My moods fluctuated depending on several factors: they fluctuated depending on the amount of alcohol I’d already consumed, the amount of alcohol within my reach, and the amount of alcohol that I knew I needed to buy. These were all of utmostContinue reading “Chapter 4 ~ CHANGES”
I still find it interesting when I encounter folks who have indeed relapsed but prefer to call it something else. Like a mistake. Or a slip. Or a setback. Or (insert your favorite noun) … To me, this suggests that this person hadn’t paid the full fare for the recovery train in the 1st place.Continue reading “Let’s Call A Spade A Spade.”
Drank hand sanitizer “Why do I so this? I’m going to go to a SMART meeting this evening. I cant seem to stop.the sanitizer made me throw up so I didn’t even get drunk. I’m starting my journey today. I’m sick of this.” Someone posted that in one of the online recovery forums I visit.Continue reading “What? Straight From The Bottle?”