How Did That Bottle Get Under My Pillow!?

Look! Here’s another one behind the living room curtains! And here’s a new bottle of vodka in the guest bedroom closet under a stack of blankets. Of all the weird shit! No!! I swear! I have no idea how this stuff got there. No. Really. I swear. I speak no lies. PUHLEASE. And I don’tContinue reading “How Did That Bottle Get Under My Pillow!?”

O, The Lies I Told Myself.

I’m good. I’m really good. I can tell myself anything and believe it – if I want to. Especially when it comes to alcohol and drinking. I used to say to myself, “I’ll have just ONE drink. It’s a special occasion – it’s St. Patrick’s Day” Or, “It’s Wednesday, Fuck it.” Or, “The sun cameContinue reading “O, The Lies I Told Myself.”

When It Comes To Your Sobriety Do You Feel Understood?

Have you ever felt like you’ve wasted your time, energy and breath trying to explain something to someone who just cannot seem to GET IT? And you wonder something like “How is it possible that no matter what I say, she/he just cannot seem to grasp it? How am I explaining this wrong? What elseContinue reading “When It Comes To Your Sobriety Do You Feel Understood?”

But I Thought I Really DID Want To Get Sober!

What does it say to us when we think we know what we want only to find out the hard way that we were WAY OFF? I’m coming to the conclusion – I think – that there are plenty of folks trying to get sober because they truly believe they want sobriety. And at first,Continue reading “But I Thought I Really DID Want To Get Sober!”

I Was Drunk At My Own Wedding

The following is an excerpt from my book Saturation, A Memoir. My work can be found on Amazon here: https://www.amazon.com/~/e/B0067BBNKM ~~~ “I could not have been more thrilled to be moving to Canada. Vancouver is only a two hour drive north of Seattle. I didn’t care so much about the city Dick and I wereContinue reading “I Was Drunk At My Own Wedding”

Getting Sober and Staying Sober. What’s the difference?

Relapse.  That’s the difference between getting sober and staying sober.  Getting sober is no small endeavor, and obviously, neither is staying sober. While getting sober might feel impossible to some folks, staying sober is equally challenging. The temptation to drink is always lurking. ALWAYS. Whether someone chooses to drink or chooses to stay sober dependsContinue reading “Getting Sober and Staying Sober. What’s the difference?”

HellFIRE and Tarnation!

I had another drinking dream. That’s two – in as many nights. And this one included my oldest on. What is Going ON?! So, true to my nature to research stuff, I researched this. According to some in the field – those whose opinions I respect because they know more about the origins of dreamsContinue reading “HellFIRE and Tarnation!”

Toss It In The Dumpster.

As long as folks who are struggling to get or stay sober keep that drink on the top shelf of their mind – rather than tossing it in the dumpster where it belongs – it’s going to stare them right back in the face. Getting and staying sober doesn’t have to be such a struggle.Continue reading “Toss It In The Dumpster.”

My Life Hurts.

I just read a post on a social network site where someone titled her thread with ~ The Alcohol I Drank Yesterday Is Triggering Me To Drink Today. I thought to myself, What?! Seriously? No. It’s not. The sun came up today and you’re still alive. That’s your trigger. I don’t believe in triggers. OnceContinue reading “My Life Hurts.”

I Rear Ended Two Cars

On the same day. Yes. I’d been drinking. No, I’m not a big believer in miracles. But, it may be a miracle, in this case, that I didn’t hurt anyone that day. Everyone was fine and there was no damage to either car – both times. The first driver couldn’t have been less interested onceContinue reading “I Rear Ended Two Cars”

I am NOT An Alcoholic!

“I’m not slurring.” “I’m not spending all my money on alcohol.” “I can walk a straight line.” “I remember what I said last night. I just don’t want to rehash it.” “I’m not lying. Believe what you want.“ “Everyone needs to relax. I’m not drinking too much.” “My marriage/relationship has always been miserable.” “Of courseContinue reading “I am NOT An Alcoholic!”

Do Alcoholics Ever FULLY Recover? 🤔

I was walking the kittens yesterday when an idea overtook the direction of my thinking. Do Alcoholics ever fully recover? I considered that as long as I continue to – not drink alcohol – my alcoholism stays dormant. Perhaps like cancer? (I’ve never had cancer) But if I ever choose to pick up again, I’llContinue reading “Do Alcoholics Ever FULLY Recover? 🤔”

Planning To Quit

Doesn’t work because before the big moment arrives, we have every opportunity up until then to change the plan. We know when we need to stop drinking. The only reason we don’t do it is because we don’t want to. The way to stop drinking is to stop thinking about it and just do it.Continue reading “Planning To Quit”

The Art of Getting Sober

Stop drinking. Getting sober is one thing. Becoming sober is another. If getting sober was easy, everyone would do it. But here’s the inside scoop – getting sober doesn’t have to be hard and it can be permanent. There’s only ONE thing anyone has to do – stop drinking alcohol. Isn’t that nuts? It’s crazyContinue reading “The Art of Getting Sober”

Intention Vs Focus

Can I be focused on one thing while my Intention is elsewhere? YES. I can easily focus on cooking dinner while my intention is to rearrange my living room (again). I can easily focus on driving my car to the grocery store while my intention is to make it OUT of the store without anyContinue reading “Intention Vs Focus”