What’s So Bad About Rehab?

That’s right – going to rehab raises a plethora of fears. Like: Breaking old routines. Time away from family. Loss of relationship/s (this could turn out to be a good thing in some cases). Fear of getting to know yourself and what that implies. Rehab isn’t cheap. The food isn’t always spectacular. Unless you’re veryContinue reading “What’s So Bad About Rehab?”

The Perks Of Going To Residential Treatment (AKA Rehab).

You learn things about addiction that you might not otherwise learn. Loads of other addicts become your new friends (AKA people that can relate to you). You can cry in public and folks actually expect this. There’s always plenty of toilet paper. You’ll probably get to do art. You’ll lose weight (whether you intend toContinue reading “The Perks Of Going To Residential Treatment (AKA Rehab).”

Oh, SNAP. In Sobriety, I’ve Discovered A New Addiction To Multiple Things.

What-O-What am I supposed to do now that I’ve acknowledged my new addiction to kindness, hand holding, soft kisses, Mochas, helpful intentions, honesty, smiles, children laughing, babies smiling, warm covers, and good milk chocolate? Hm. Maybe Life’s just not so bad after all …

Does Anyone Identify With This?

I don’t. When alcoholics. or addicts, are in the throes of detox and trying to get sober/clean – it’s nearly impossible for us to identify with a sober person dealing with us. It’s hard enough for folks to identify with one another when everyone involved is sober. But when one in the party of twoContinue reading “Does Anyone Identify With This?”

What Speaks To Your Heart?

Sometimes, I remind folks that when we decide to get sober and leave our drug of choice behind, essentially – we’re breaking up with it. My relationship was with alcohol and drinking it. Alcohol was always there for me – as long as I had the $$$ to buy it. I knew where to findContinue reading “What Speaks To Your Heart?”

The Process. Drink, Get Sober, Relapse, Repeat.

While I understand and respect the value of experiencing the full process of addiction and recovery – I feel the need to put it out there that many who do choose to directly experience every nuance of the path, don’t make it to the happy ending called recovery. For some of us – our addictionsContinue reading “The Process. Drink, Get Sober, Relapse, Repeat.”

It IS Possible!

I just found this photo on a social network site and had to snag it. It’s a wonderful example of what is possible for every addict and alcoholic in terms of beginning a new clean and sober life. We can begin again. This photo, I believe, embodies perfectly the tangible and available potential we allContinue reading “It IS Possible!”

Someone’s Confused

By the time folks “decide” to get sober, they’ve likely been tossing around the idea of quitting drinking for a long long time. There’s always a part of us, regardless how small it is, that doesn’t want to stop. And so we engage it, become confused by it, think about it, talk about it, andContinue reading “Someone’s Confused”

Chapter 4 ~ CHANGES

The following is an excerpt from my memoir Saturation. I was rarely predictable. My moods fluctuated depending on several factors: they fluctuated depending on the amount of alcohol I’d already consumed, the amount of alcohol within my reach, and the amount of alcohol that I knew I needed to buy. These were all of utmostContinue reading “Chapter 4 ~ CHANGES”

Let’s Call A Spade A Spade.

I still find it interesting when I encounter folks who have indeed relapsed but prefer to call it something else. Like a mistake. Or a slip. Or a setback. Or (insert your favorite noun) … To me, this suggests that this person hadn’t paid the full fare for the recovery train in the 1st place.Continue reading “Let’s Call A Spade A Spade.”

Preposterous!

(Preposterous! Isn’t that a great word?) Saturation continues here … It served Dick to overlook my relationship with alcohol, whatever he thought it might be, because he realized he couldn’t compete with it. Alcohol was the wrapping on the package that was ME. I made this very clear from the beginning of our relationship when,Continue reading “Preposterous!”

Please Hold. I Need To Overthink This.

What is it about the human condition that we, in general, have to make things so hard for ourselves? We overthink and over-complicate the simplest things. We’re so moved by our emotions that we’re at the mercy of them. We’re slaves to our own drives. No wonder some people suggest we only use about 10%Continue reading “Please Hold. I Need To Overthink This.”