Why Do We Feel Badly

When we know we’ve done the right thing? Okay, this doesn’t always happen – just occasionally. There are plenty of times when I do the right thing, and I feel fantastic and groovy in every way about it. Those feelings arise nearly all of the time, but not yesterday and not this morning. Yesterday IContinue reading “Why Do We Feel Badly”

Just Another Sober Weekend. Happy Happy!

Oohhhhhhh boy. Sobriety just rockadillies! This weekend, because I’m sober, I was able to get out of bed and buy one of these…In case you can’t tell, that’s a chocolate chip cookie. Nomnomnomnomnom!! This weekend, because I’m sober, I was able to roll out of bed and head out on a hike with this guyContinue reading “Just Another Sober Weekend. Happy Happy!”

Time Spent with the BMOC

Yes, I’m talking about God. For whatever reason, the idea to resume my meditation practice has been noticeably present in my brain since yesterday. This idea to meditate popped up in there again this morning, so I’ve decided I better act on it. I think this might be considered Jennifer is listening to her intuitionContinue reading “Time Spent with the BMOC”

Our AV Never Dies

It just quiets down sometimes. This is the conclusion I’ve arrived at. I read or hear about folks accumulating decades of sobriety, only to cave one day for – essentially – nothing. All that time. All that hard work – POOF – left in the past. Once a person relapses – that restarts the sobrietyContinue reading “Our AV Never Dies”

What Is A Dry Drunk?

I know! I know! I know! It’s an insult thrown around by folks who swear by AA. It’s supposed to refer to an individual, male or female, who – though not drinking – is still behaving as though he or she is. Wait. What?! Weird, right? There’s no such thing as a Dry Drunk. AContinue reading “What Is A Dry Drunk?”

Why do we relapse?

It is excruciating to discover that someone has relapsed. Especially when they’ve accumulated substantial time in sobriety. What on earth happened, I wonder. How could this person give up so much hard work and so much sober time – for what? Just about anything, anyone, and any occasion can be blamed for relapsing. But ultimately,Continue reading “Why do we relapse?”

Shadows

They’re great for making analogies, aren’t they? So elusive. So intangible and dark. But real all the same. In a way, they remind me of sobriety. Sobriety always seemed just out of reach during the midst of addiction, when really, the potential for it was right in front of my face the whole time. TheContinue reading “Shadows”

So Many Choices!

Recently, I read something that said β€œLife is an experiment.” I found that curious. I can see Life being an adventure because – HELLO? It is definitely one of those, but an experiment? So – I decided to let that idea marinate on a back burner until this morning. And now I’m all over it. How is LifeContinue reading “So Many Choices!”

The Unicorns Are Gone

The highlights of drinking used to be downright merriment. I was social. I was cute. I was happy. I was bouncy. I pranced with the Unicorns. And though I’ve never used the term, “Liquid Gold” is often used to describe the euphoric affects of alcohol. Personally, I prefer “Lovely Sedation” or “Bliss”. Too damn badContinue reading “The Unicorns Are Gone”