Sick Dick

Continued from chapter 3 of my memoir: Saturation https://www.amazon.com/Saturation-Memoir-Jennifer-Place/dp/1461018129 It took just over two short months before I became aware of how unhealthy his attachment to me had grown. And I allowed it. I participated. He gave me what I wanted – alcohol. We became like two sick spiders intertwined in a foul emotional web.Continue reading “Sick Dick”

What? Straight From The Bottle?

Drank hand sanitizer “Why do I so this? I’m going to go to a SMART meeting this evening. I cant seem to stop.​​​​​​the sanitizer made me throw up so I didn’t even get drunk. I’m starting my journey today. I’m sick of this.” Someone posted that in one of the online recovery forums I visit.Continue reading “What? Straight From The Bottle?”

Preposterous!

(Preposterous! Isn’t that a great word?) Saturation continues here … It served Dick to overlook my relationship with alcohol, whatever he thought it might be, because he realized he couldn’t compete with it. Alcohol was the wrapping on the package that was ME. I made this very clear from the beginning of our relationship when,Continue reading “Preposterous!”

Roller Coasters SUCK

I don’t care what anyone says, roller coasters suck. They’re dangerous and terrifying and loud. Here’s the interesting bit. Folks not only have a mental roller coaster available to ride in their brains, they choose to get on it and ride for days, weeks, months and even years at a time, without getting off, whenContinue reading “Roller Coasters SUCK”

Everything’s Weird Now, So I Guess I’ll Just Drink.

A lot of folks who used to be normal drinkers have lost their jobs due to the Corona Virus. With no job to occupy their days and with many services closed, a lot of drinkers have turned up the volume on their alcohol consumption. Drinking has become a new pastime. While alcohol blankets the stressContinue reading “Everything’s Weird Now, So I Guess I’ll Just Drink.”

The Most Important Relationship

Is the one I have with myself. Do I respect myself? Am I proud of what I do? Am I confident about what I say? Do my goals challenge me? Do I care for my health (in every sense)? Do I eat well? Do I let my-self enjoy the small things like the occasional pieceContinue reading “The Most Important Relationship”

Shadows

They’re great for making analogies, aren’t they? So elusive. So intangible and dark. But real all the same. In a way, they remind me of sobriety. Sobriety always seemed just out of reach during the midst of addiction, when really, the potential for it was right in front of my face the whole time. TheContinue reading “Shadows”

So Many Choices!

Recently, I read something that said “Life is an experiment.” I found that curious. I can see Life being an adventure because – HELLO? It is definitely one of those, but an experiment? So – I decided to let that idea marinate on a back burner until this morning. And now I’m all over it. How is LifeContinue reading “So Many Choices!”

The Unicorns Are Gone

The highlights of drinking used to be downright merriment. I was social. I was cute. I was happy. I was bouncy. I pranced with the Unicorns. And though I’ve never used the term, “Liquid Gold” is often used to describe the euphoric affects of alcohol. Personally, I prefer “Lovely Sedation” or “Bliss”. Too damn badContinue reading “The Unicorns Are Gone”