So. What do we do when we realize or become aware of this internal force that’s been driving us our entire lives? Anyone? Anyone? Bueller?
Do I follow this impulse, this movement inside me, or do I pull up on the reins and say, “Whoa there. Let me just think on this for a moment.”
I could do this or I could do that. I could stay here, go down there, or go over there. For whatever reason, something inside me helps (or so I’d like to think) me make decisions. I’m pulled toward one thing and this moves me away from the rest of my options. What the fuck is this sensation?
I thought about this earlier and wondered if our lives ARE written out for us – but not in stone. And when we become aware of this sensation, we can think independently of it, and using our free will (or so we think???) write it ourselves. On paper. And do something else. Entirely.
It’s pretty cool, but it also opens up all possibilities (that I’m aware of) and requires that I take the time to consider everything. At the very least this is time consuming and could get overly complicated.