One morning during breakfast, late in the second week of my stay, someone announced that our schedule had been changed and everyone needed to meet downstairs in the lecture room at 9:30. I arrived early and counted 45 chairs placed in a U shape against three of the walls in the room. The chairs startedContinue reading “The Game.”
The following is a list of things I either received, experienced or witnessed, in order of frequency, from all seven of my treatment centers combined. Hold on to your hats… Drama – SO much drama Noise (crying, laughing, yelling, music, etc…treatment centers are very loud.) Deceit (folks lying to themselves, to others or to me.)Continue reading “What To Expect In Residential Treatment.”
Does it mean I get to go to bed having completed at least 3/4ths of the things on my list? How about half? How about if I manage to get at least one thing done? Was I productive? I don’t know. So, I’m editing my book and it’s turning into a bigger challenge than IContinue reading “What Does A Productive Day Entail?”
I’m talking about feelings and emotions. Granted, they come in very handy for some things like – oh, I don’t know – warning us about danger or indicating love or compassion or regret or what have you. But, and maybe it’s just me, these things – feelings – tend to hang around a lot longerContinue reading “Exactly HOW Useful Are These Things…? 🤨”
And now that I can’t find what I’m missing, I’m having unfortunate thoughts and feelings. I had a conversation just last night about the Buddhist philosophy of attachment and suffering. When we become attached to stuff – a person, a place, an object, a thing – anything – and then it disappears – for whateverContinue reading “I Was Attached.”
Being abandoned by people you care about or having those same people believe a lie about you?
“Oh, look!” Beth exclaimed. “Someone forgot his adorable little toy bike!” Beth was our Yoga instructor and I disliked her a great deal. From her rancid breath to the fact that she had no sense of personal boundaries, I found nearly everything about her offensive. We’d walked to the park that morning rather than doingContinue reading “Little Yellow Mountain Bike”
It has been one CRAZY year! During 2020, I started a new relationship in February, got sober in March, Had a seizure and spent three days in the hospital in April, broke up with my boyfriend in May, got back together with him in May, moved in June, started exercising in June, my youngest sonContinue reading “WHERE DID THE ROAD TAKE YOU DURING 2020?”
Be your own Santa. Give yourself a little love and a nice Christmas present. Stay sober today.
I can’t keep my tree upright. Every time I walk into the living room, one of my kittens is attached to the tree. I already figured out that decorating the tree is not only a waste of time, it amounts to a lot of missing decorations. I swear, my kitties must be eating the ornaments.Continue reading “Christmas Trees And Kittens”
In sober circles this kind of logic is called Insanity. Some folks want the benefit of sobriety while being able to continue drinking. Odd, but true. I read that the holidays are particularly challenging for a lot of folks in sobriety. They don’t want to be seen as non-drinkers. Why? I do not know. What’sContinue reading “I’ll Take An Order Of ‘All The Benefits Without Doing Any Of The Work’. 😁”
I was first in the shower. I had to go first, my court appearance was that day, I just didn’t know what time. I didn’t want to take the chance that I might not be ready when a guard came for me. Instead of staying in my cell after my shower, I opted to watchContinue reading “Cornrows In The Courtroom”
I’ve come to see that the longer and harder I think about something I want to do – the harder it becomes to do it. I have no idea why this happens, but it does. When I want to exercise – getting myself to the gym becomes a huge undertaking. When I wanted to getContinue reading “Is It Easy? Well, Okay Then – I’ll Do It.”
Where does the idea that one might have a problem with alcohol abuse come from? Thoughts don’t just pop into our head out of the abyss. Right? They must come from somewhere. So where is this place? And why that idea? I seriously doubt our conscience has a sense of humor. And even if itContinue reading “Better Judgement. Got Some?”