I was walking the kittens yesterday when an idea overtook the direction of my thinking. Do Alcoholics ever fully recover? I considered that as long as I continue to – not drink alcohol – my alcoholism stays dormant. Perhaps like cancer? (I’ve never had cancer) But if I ever choose to pick up again, I’ll be walking right into some deep doo doo because the alcohol will activate my alcoholism.
This makes sense to me.
So. Now I know what I think. While I am most definitely IN recovery, I do not consider myself fully recovered. Nor do I think I ever will be because all I have to do is change my mind about drinking and game over.
So – is it right to compare alcoholism to cancer? Maybe not. I’ll use Angelina Jolie here as an example of someone who did have a choice to attempt to lower her risk of getting sick. She chose to have a double mastectomy in an attempt to prevent getting breast cancer (something she would never choose to have). She also had another preventative surgery (that I can’t say or spell) to remove an overy. My guess is that while she reduced her chances to get cancer, her chances of getting it today are about as good as mine. Does this mean that she’s fully recovered? She never had cancer in the first place. So – I’m not sure what I think about this.
The difference is that cancer survivors do not have a choice as to whether or not they’re going to get cancer. On the other hand, a heavy drinker does not have to evolve into an alcoholic. The choice is there. So – I am leaning toward believing that due to this choice I have – to drink or not – this suggests that I am not nor will I ever fully recover.
It’s sort of interesting to think about.