The Universe Has Something To Say. Are You Listening?

First, we’re hit with this overwhelming Urge to drink. It’s worse and more intense than being thirsty for a glass of water. Non alcoholics can’t relate to just how powerful this Urge is because there’s not a thing like it on the planet. It’s a stand alone sensation. The only sensation that is worthy ofContinue reading “The Universe Has Something To Say. Are You Listening?”

Bunnies! Everywhere! 🐰Chapter 5

The following is an excerpt from the beginning of chapter 5 in my book Saturation A Memoir. Previous chapters can be found here in my blog. My memoir can be found on Amazon: Saturation: A Memoir: Place, Jennifer: 9781461018124: Amazon.com: Books I flew to Canada the same day I put my youngest son on aContinue reading “Bunnies! Everywhere! 🐰Chapter 5”

Aw, Shit! I Took The Bait. Again.

Ever wonder why and how you manage to continually find yourself with the hook in your mouth? Ever ask yourself, “Why is it so insanely hard for me to get away from this person/situation? Why do I feel I have to react to every freaking thing this person says or does?” This person being anyoneContinue reading “Aw, Shit! I Took The Bait. Again.”

Wait A Minute! Isn’t Every Day Special?!

Miracles and significant events happen every day somewhere on the planet. Right? Isn’t every day a holiday or someone’s birthday? I think so. Otherwise, it’s just Thursday – again – for the 4,653rd time in my life. I was wondering earlier how many folks are struggling to stay sober today simply because it’s a holiday.Continue reading “Wait A Minute! Isn’t Every Day Special?!”

Back In The Old Days When I Was Only 30 …

Is it me or did the last 20 years just fly by? It is me? Well, shit. I remember as a kid thinking that my parents were just O L D. And here I am today – 20 years older then they were then. WtF?!?! How’d this happen? I don’t remember agreeing to this! Now,Continue reading “Back In The Old Days When I Was Only 30 …”

It IS Possible!

I just found this photo on a social network site and had to snag it. It’s a wonderful example of what is possible for every addict and alcoholic in terms of beginning a new clean and sober life. We can begin again. This photo, I believe, embodies perfectly the tangible and available potential we allContinue reading “It IS Possible!”

Sometimes, The Only Winning Move Is Not To Play.

Have you ever had a dead end discussion with someone who – no matter what you say – comes back at you with something nuttier and even more far fetched than the first thing they said? It’s beyond excruciatingly maddening! I find myself in this position sometimes where I want to just launch, but I’veContinue reading “Sometimes, The Only Winning Move Is Not To Play.”

He Found His RHYTHM!!!

The Jerk Gettin Rhythm – Bing video (The whole film is just plain feel good, but these dance scenes of his are hilarious!) Once Navin found his rhythm, he could finally get his groove on out in the real world. The world of the living and doing and grooving. This is sort of how IContinue reading “He Found His RHYTHM!!!”

For The Most Part… Con’t From Chapter 4

The following is an excerpt from my book Saturation A Memoir. You can find it on Amazon here: https://www.amazon.com/~/e/B0067BBNKM ~~~~~~~ Today, I consider my decisions and departure during that time emotionally and psychologically violent. I was merciless and utterly selfish in my intoxication. I spared no one. Both of my sons settled into their livesContinue reading “For The Most Part… Con’t From Chapter 4”

“I’ll Have An Alcohol Free Chardonnay And A Non-Fat Chocolate Brownie. Thank You.”

Some people’s behavior actually reflects this kind of thinking. I’m trying, and failing I think, to imagine the depths of their delusion here. I think that to build up any kind of positive self-image, which, I believe is necessary in order NOT to say things like that, one has to first start with being honestContinue reading ““I’ll Have An Alcohol Free Chardonnay And A Non-Fat Chocolate Brownie. Thank You.””

Why Are Some Things Contagious And Others Aren’t?

Diseases, feelings, ideas, attitudes ~ these can all spread through populations and ‘infect’ others. We’re already way too familiar with the COVID19 virus and how easy it is to become infected by it. Everyone on the planet – just about – is walking around with a mask on. But feelings? Ideas? Attitudes? These things canContinue reading “Why Are Some Things Contagious And Others Aren’t?”

When Does Sobriety Melt Into A Non-Issue?

If I refer to myself as a non-drinker and identify myself as such, which I do, why do I have to keep making my sobriety a priority? Why do I have to keep devoting mental space and energy to it? Can’t I just get on with the rest of my life already? I understand what’sContinue reading “When Does Sobriety Melt Into A Non-Issue?”

Why Am I On The Lip Of Being Grouchy?!

I don’t know. Everything’s fine. My coffee is brewing. My kittens still love me (or at least I think they do). My heater works. I had a clean robe to put on this morning. My home is still standing. Blah blah blah. I don’t know what my problem is. I lay in bed before gettingContinue reading “Why Am I On The Lip Of Being Grouchy?!”

I Was Drunk At My Own Wedding

The following is an excerpt from my book Saturation, A Memoir. My work can be found on Amazon here: https://www.amazon.com/~/e/B0067BBNKM ~~~ “I could not have been more thrilled to be moving to Canada. Vancouver is only a two hour drive north of Seattle. I didn’t care so much about the city Dick and I wereContinue reading “I Was Drunk At My Own Wedding”