Screw This! I QUIT!

Ever say that?

Ever say, “Now what am I supposed to do?” Or, “How am I supposed to deal with THAT?” How about this one: “I don’t want THIS or THAT. I want them both and I don’t want either!” “Right NOW!”

HA! It feels like insanity, right?

Finding answers can be extremely frustrating. Why do they have to be so damn elusive? I don’t know… That sensation of not knowing is terribly unsettling. Especially when it’s coupled with the sensation that an answer feels necessary right away. Our need for instant gratification is a game changer. It really puts us in a dilemma, doesn’t it? It gives us an opportunity that we’re not quite sure we asked for or even wanted. We can practice patience while the answer comes to us or we can plow through life until we assuage that unsettled feeling – with alcohol, sex, exercise, drugs, isolation, people, and yada yada yada.

Instead of throwing up my hands in dismay at the onset of this conundrum, I just allow the answers I need to float to the surface. I’ve discovered that they will float to the surface when I get out of my head and out of my own way. And funny enough, not everything is the emergency I tend to make it.

Huh. Go figure.

Published by Jennifer

I've finally found my happy place in sobriety. Yay! Go Me!

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